Band Goals

Music saves everyone. Do we all agree on that or nah?

Whatever your stand on that may be, it is undeniable that music adds color, or drama, to our lives.

Truth be told, I listen to music more than I listen to lessons in my classes.

Lately, my friend and I have been obsessed with the idea of starting a band. A day won't pass without us talking about it, our supposed band name, members to recruit, instruments to buy, and so on and so forth.

We planned the band as if our lives depended on it. We would sometimes even forget we have school-related things to do. So we end up staying up late til 3 AM, just to finish assignments and papers, or review for exams, then waking up groggy at 7 AM

And it is because of studies being our no. 1 priority that our dream band is galaxies away from our grasp. We can't do much but listen to bands like Fall Out Boy and Sleeping with Sirens while cramming papers due the next day.

But one night, I just knocked on their door.

Blessie: "Why do you have a guitar with you?"
Me: "I have nothing to do. Let's jam."
Blessie: "Let's let's. Let's be happy for tonight."

And thus, our first cover was born!

After finishing the cover, we realized we took a step closer to our dream of starting a band. We were both overwhelmed by our accomplishment, that we shared it to our social media sites.

And here I present to you all our first ever cover. I Don't Love You, by My Chemical Romance. Blessie Ayalde on lead and vocals, and yours truly, on rhythm guitar. Listen and enjoy!

The Last Leaf

"Daddy, Daddy, look!" my sister squealed, pointing out the car window. Different shades of brown and yellow were fluttering around us, as our car passed by a row of trees.

"It's already the fall season. Your favorite, isn't it, Ellie?" My dad asked, without taking his eyes off the wheel.

"Next to ice cream," my sister replied matter-of-factly. This made my dad and I chuckle.

"Let's make leaf angels together when we get home," I told her.  She tore her gaze away from the window and turned to my direction. Her eyes sparkled, and I could almost see her ears clapping at the thought of leaf angels. It's a yes, I thought.

We were on our way home from school — Dad picks Ellie up first, then me. It was a daily routine. Even my classes are routinely; I was bored to death. Nothing outstanding happened today, just like all the other days.

I stared out the window at my side, taking in the view of the trees bared of their leaves. The season's changed, but my life haven't yet, I thought. Just how long should I lead a life filled to the brim with routines? I wanted to step out and start anew, but how?

"Stephen, you will be continuing your violin lessons, right? Your teacher has returned from Canada," my dad told me, which brought me back to reality. He was looking at me through the mirror, waiting for my response. I nodded yes without giving it much thought. Well, at least music was there to make my life a wee bit less normal.

Twenty more minutes and we were already pulling in front of our house. Our front porch turned into a sea of gold and rubies. Perfect for making leaf angels. I didn't notice my sister was already out the car, until she opened the door at my side and tugged at my arm.

"Hurry up, big brother! Let's go make leaf angels already!" She said, and I let myself be pulled by her tiny hands.

I saw Mom step outside the front door, donning a blue apron and holding a ladle in one hand. "Oh, you're already home. Sorry for the leaves, I was too busy cooking and cleaning inside," she told us, waving the ladle.

"It's okay Mommy, we'll be playing with them anyways," Ellie exclaimed. She was gathering a huge pile of leaves, and when she was satisfied with it, she took a few steps back, and finally plunged into the heap. Mom and Dad laughed, and not long after they went inside the house.

"You really made a splash there, Ellie," I smiled at my sister, who had leaves all over her hair. She was already making a new pile of leaves to jump into, but this time a bigger one.

"That was what I wanted," she beamed at me. When she was done with the pile, she stood beside me. "Now, big brother Stephen, it's your time to splash!" 

With all her strength, she pushed me sideways into the pile of leaves. I was caught by surprise that her small push made huge crunching noises. I sat up, and saw my sister at my side, giggling while making a leaf angel. I laid back on the leafy heap, and started to make my own leaf angel too.

"Leaf angels are the best. Jumping into piles of leaves are the best. Fall is the best!" I heard my sister exclaim.

"All next to ice cream, right?" I asked.

"Oh, yeah. Um, ice cream is the best of the best!" She said, pumping her fists into the air. I laughed and turned my gaze upwards. The young evening sky and tree banches hovered over me.

All the branches looked the same to me—woody and leafless. But one branch caught my attention. It was different amongst the others, albeit inconspicuously. A yellow leaf was solely attached to the branch. The leaf looked like it was holding on for dear life.

"Should we be really happy that leaves are falling?" I suddenly blurted out. "I'm okay with it, because I can make leaf angels. They can fall anytime, and then I can make leaf angels anytime!" My sister answered innocently. I sat up and saw her in a different spot. She had already made three leaf angels. 

But I thought differently. That one last leaf made me think of the ideals of never giving up, but more of never surrendering to conformity. Somehow, I felt a small part of me was enlightened. I looked back at that particular leaf, and saw it sway, and slowly the wind took it away, finally mixing in with the hundred other leaves on the ground.

"To start anew, to lessen the boring routines that make up life, I need a lot of courage and strength to stand out from the crowd," I said to myself, smiling. I finally found a brand new way to live my life.

I was about to stand up when all of a sudden, leaves poured down on me. I looked up and saw my sister's face hovering over me, a mischievous smile playing on her lips. I stood up, stretched, and cracked my knuckles.

"Oh no, Ellie. You know what happens when you do mischief to big brother," I told her, smiling playfully. She gasped, took a step back, and dashed away.

"I don't and won't know unless you catch me!" She giggled. I laughed, and chased after her.

Just two siblings chasing each other, in a sea of gold and rubies. A sea that contained the last leaf.

Living in a Pressure Cooker

I am seventeen years old.

I haven't done much yet for all the years I have existed here in this Earth.

But what is so scary, is the feeling of pressure.

Pressure around my neck. I feel like all the oxygen in my body is being squeezed out.
Pressure around my wrists. It stings, I feel like they have been slashed for hundreds of times.
Pressure around my waist. The urge to vomit is too great; I fear that I might throw up my intestines.
Pressure around my feet. They have gone numb. My feet were probably cut away from me.

The air around me is so dense. I can smell methane with every sharp breath I take.

The road I'm walking on is splatted with a crimson red and sometimes adorned by a murky blackness.

The buildings are corroding, faster than a mouse can escape a cat's claws. Heaps of debris lie everywhere.

My eyes are slowly being void of any glimmer of hope. They have become pools of apathy.

Why, why is this happening?!

What have I done to face a life so bleak?

Our family was tightly-knitted, I was acing my academics, I was enjoying school. I was loving music, I was laughing with my friends.

Then came "society".

I had to go over hurdles, just to get to what is called "happiness".

If I leave for a day off, I would have missed a year's worth of happenings.

Even if I do not want to, I am force-fed to want it, to like it.

I am always told to make my own choices, but the choices laid out on me just lead to the same, dull ending.

Everything around me is controlled.

Everything around me pressures me.

Yet all these pressures brought zero happiness to me.

Working day and night, trying to take over time, but still... Pressure did not make me do a lot of things worth living for.

Deep scars and memories of pain were the things, the horrible things that pressure left in my life.

To enjoy the little things of life is my aim.

Not to live in a pressure cooker.

Who Would have Thought + Intro Yey!

Over the new Year's, I came across my best friend's blog.

Then, enlightenment washed over me, like BOOM.

I would love to have my very own blog too!

A place where I can rant my thoughts away.

Where I can publish my writings.

Where I can share various things of my interest!

But I never thought much about it.

"If I create a blog, it's either I'll be too focused on it, or forget all about it after a few months," I said to myself.

So I tucked the idea of blogs at the very back of my mind.

But who would have thought that I get to make one?

Though partly because it is a requirement in one of our subjects, but still.

I finally get to own a blog!

And before I forget, let me introduce myself to you.


I am Nyrveli A. Alidon. Call me Near if my given name's too hard for you to pronounce.

Currently, I am a freshman gathering knowledge and polishing skills at the University of the Philippines, Los Banos. 

I am taking up BS Computer Science. A degree program that paved way for my dream of owning a blog.

I have been converting oxygen into carbon dioxide for 17 years.

I have a lot of interests and hobbies in life.

I love manga. I love mangoes too.

I love music. I have no specific genre, I just listen to whatever tugs at my heart.

And because of my love for music, I also study it. I know how to play a little bit of this and that on the piano, or on the guitar.

I am also dying to have my very own violin, and learn how to play it.

I also love spending hours on the Internet. What can I say, it's a haven of trivia, information, and laughs!

I love watching Youtube videos by Ryan Higa, Lilly Singh, Motoki Maxted, and many more.

And I love writing just about anything.

Now that is a lot of "I love"'s.

What to do. I just love a lot of things.